Anhedonia: He kohinga whiti mai i te tirohanga o ngā wahanga e rima o te pōuri / A collection of poetry themed around loss presented through the lens of the five stages of grief

Abstract

Anhedonia is a collection of personal experiences centred around loss examined through the lens of the five stages of grief (denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance) and framed within a personal confessional postmodernism style. It was also influenced by the collected works of Federico Garcia Lorca, Sylvia Plath, Cassandra Barnett (Ngāti Huri, Raukawa), Kirsty Dunn (Te Aupōuri, Te Rarawa), and Ngahuia Te Awekotuku (Te Arawa, Tūhoe).

While loss and grief are intrinsically linked to death, within this collection, I further explore other forms of loss and grief. I touch on my loss of cultural identity, mind, and self. As a student, I have been diving deeper into my cultural identity of being Māori and what that means to me. I have lost many things throughout my life at the hands of abuse, depression, grief, and mental health. The poetry within this collection will continue to serve as a blunt reminder of the experiences (both positive and negative) that I have endured or witnessed over the last couple of decades.

I have seen a multitude of losses (in its many variations) as I continue the dance to discover what the mortality of not only myself but those around me means to me. While everyone will experience feelings of grief and loss, I have framed my own experiences in my interpretation of our collective mortality.